Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Never Wanted This

Guess what? This one's really, really old.

In fact, it dates back to about 2000, and somehow took seven years or so before it got released. Perhaps even more surprisingly, we both really like it.

It's been on a very long journey. The lyrics have been completely rewritten on several occasions, and it's gone through a couple of very different sounds as well. The original was very dark and analogue, but at the end of 2005, Simon re-recorded the whole thing on my MicroKorg, and made it sound less dark but still very analogue.

The song is about bullying. It started life as a song about being bullied, and ended up almost being a song about doing the bullying - which perhaps isn't as much of a transformation as it might seem. Generally, I think a lot of discontent went into the lyrics over the seven years it took to write, which led to some wonderful lines, such as "All my life, I've never looked back / But now I'm only human", and of course the eternal question "Why waste all of these years out in the autumn rain?"